Saturday, January 25, 2014

Best Day Ever!!!!

So I just had the best day and thought I would share since most of my posts are about my ever deteriorating health and are very somber in nature. I guess I figured it was time for something fun and happy!! I also don't want to forget a moment of it so here we go.....
Today (01/25/2014) was the Wizard World Portland Comic Con. After only getting 3-4 hours of sleep I was exhausted but excited since I have been waiting the better part of a year for this day!! Brian and I took off around 10am and headed for the Convention Center in Portland. After spending almost an hour looking for a parking spot and another half hour or so in line to get in, I headed straight for Norman Reedus' line as I knew from last years Con his would be the longest. I was right! During the two and a half hours waiting to get his autograph I made friends with the adorable 18 year old twin girls in front of me. We chatted about Norman (of course) and the other celebs we wanted to meet. As we got closer to the big moment the girls were getting so excited and nervous that I thought they both might! Fangirling at its best! When the line wrapped around to just the right spot they were taking selfies with their backs to Norman so he would be in the pictures....during one of many shots he managed to photobomb them, throwing peace signs and his signature smile!! Both girls immediately started texting everyone they knew and posting it as their profile pic on every social media site they was the cutest thing I ever saw! When I got to Norman he was still smiling from his encounter with the twins. We chatted for a second while he signed my photo op pic from last year and hugged me TWICE.....I even managed to sneak a kiss on his cheek ;-) Made my day!! After leaving Norman, which was SO hard to do btw, I went over to meet Robert Englund. Yes, that's right, Freddy Krueger himself!!! Let me tell you, he is the NICEST person ever! I asked him if he was having fun in Portland and he proceeded to tell me a 5+ minute story about visiting Portland when he was a kid, staying in the same hotel he was in this weekend AND that he had gone to a local pub last night and got hit on by much younger women...LOL! We ended our encounter with a hug and a kiss on the cheek! What a dream come true! ANOES is my favorite horror movie franchise ever and to have this new memory to add to that is priceless! After Robert it was time for a much needed break since my leg was screaming at me. A little while later we headed back inside and I went straight for my SOA boys. Kim Coates (Tig-SOA) was first and he was an absolute delight! We stood there for a few minutes and talked about SOA and where the show is headed in it's 7th and final *sad* season. He kept calling me sweetie, babe and darlin' and hugged me three times! He also signed my picture with a very personal message about liking my name :-) As I headed to the next booth to meet Ron Perlman he called out "Love ya!" and while I was in Ron's line Kim headed out for a break so I called out "Love ya Kim!" and he turned, looked me right in the eye and said "I love you too sweetheart! See ya later!" I know he probably says the same stuff to all his female fans but for just that moment he made ME feel special and I will carry that with me forever!! ***If you ever stumble onto this blog Kim I just want to say thank you for those very special moments and I love ya!!*** When I finally got to Ron he was everything I expected. Kind and gentle but with a commanding presence that any fan of SOA knows well in his portrayal of Clay Morrow. We chatted for a minute while he signed my picture and then he allowed me to take a photo of him with my phone, which he wasn't generally allowing, so that made me feel special! I basically begged him, but it worked.......When it came to my final meeting I had to make a choice. Did I want to go hang with Michael Rooker again like last year or did I want to meet someone new? I chose the latter and boy am I glad I did because I pretty much got a twofer! I decided to meet Jon Bernthal (Shane-TWD) and what a sweetie he is! He signed my picture, called me sweet names and was including free posed pics with his autographs (as long as you brought a camera or phone with you!). While he was signing the pic I'd selected Laurie Holden (Andrea-TWD, her booth was right next to his.) popped her head through the curtain to talk to Jon. She kept looking my way so I said "Hi gorgeous!" To which she replied "You are so sweet! Thank you!" so I went for it and asked her if I could steal a hug.....she stepped through the curtain, hugged me and reiterated how I was "so sweet".....the only thing that could've been better is if Brian had been ready with the camera to catch this rare moment, but he did see it happen so that's good enough for me, as is the lifelong memory I have! Meeting Jon and Laurie was amazing but it also included the funniest moment of the day. When Laurie popped her head through the curtain Jon asked if she had any ibuprofen or Aleve. I told him I had some Tylenol and asked him if he had a headache. He then proceeded to tell me "It's too much alcohol, damn Norman Reedus!". We started laughing and I asked if they had gone out last night, he said "Yeah......" and mumbled some curses under his breath. Jon, Laurie and I were all laughing at this point as was most of the line behind me. Then we took our photo, hugged again and I went on my merry way!
Talk about the Best Day Ever!! There were a few other people I would have liked to have met and gotten autographs from but, honestly, I ran out of my allotted "Con $$" and I had gotten all the people I knew I couldn't live without so no regrets! I can't wait till next year!!!!! Brian and I are thinking about doing some Cosplay next time so we have some planning to do and costumes to make between now and then.....I'm already excited!! 
Well, that's all for today and I will try to post some pictures soon! I hope this post found you in good health and enjoying your weekends :-) Brian and I are headed to Florence tomorrow for a much needed overnight and then I have surgery on Tuesday so I might not post for a bit. My love to you all!! XOXO

Thursday, January 23, 2014

When do you just give up?

Hello readers! I hope this post finds you all enjoying 2014 and in good health...
I am not doing much better myself but I have a few good things coming up so we'll start with those:
This weekend I'll be heading up to Portland to attend Wizard World ComiCon for the second year in a row! I'll be meeting Norman Reedus (Daryl, TWD), Michael Rooker (Merle, TWD), Robert Englund (the iconic Freddy Krueger), Ron Perlman (Clay, SOA) and Kim Coates (Tig, SOA). I am really excited to have this experience again!! Then on Sunday my hubby and I are headed to Florence for an overnight at Three Rivers Casino/Resort. I love this hotel/'s beautiful, fun and has great food! This fabulous weekend couldn't come at a better time as I am scheduled for surgery on my tailbone (again!!) on the 28th. I am hoping that this time it fixes the problem but I am not holding my breath. Later in the year my hubby and I are hoping to get down to San Fran to visit my cousin and then maybe Vegas in August! The final piece of good news is that I finally have a hearing scheduled for my SSD! I head down to Eugene April 15th so the ALJ can hear my case and hopefully rule in my favor! After my surgery I will be working on getting copies of all my medical records and prepping my case. I won't lie, I am very nervous, but I know that my chances are much better this way and I am optimistic that this will all be over soon and end favorably! 
Now that we've covered the good stuff it's on to the meatier stuff. Regrettably all is not well on the health front! My pain levels are getting worse by the week and I have no real explanations. As I write this I am laying on my heating pad trying not to cry because my spine feels like it's being ripped apart. At this point my Dr is still leaning toward Lupus (or a related autoimmune disease) but we are no closer to an actual diagnosis because the bloodwork keeps volleying back and forth which is common but very frustrating! I have made some progress in therapy for the panic attacks but my depression and general anxiety are off the charts most days and my insurance will only pay for one more visit with my Phycologist. On top of this I have been stressed out over situations some of my friends are going through.... I am, by nature, a helper and I want to be able to help everyone with their issues but, honestly, I barely have enough energy to work on my own problems anymore! The mere fact that I can't help in any meaningful way makes me feel even worse. I love my friends with all of my heart and what hurts them hurts me! Then there are those "fair weather friends" I've mentioned before....I've tried to reach out over the last few months but nothing has changed. So that brings me to my question. When is it time to give up? When is it ok to tell someone that enough is enough when they aren't there for you when you need them and worse, you find out they've been gossiping about you behind your back? Where does one draw the proverbial "line in the sand"? I am not a confrontational person but I am also not one to shy away from it when necessary. I have had to fight the impulse in recent weeks to call a few people out on their BS and the only reason I haven't is because I loathe drama with a fiery passion and I know that the only possible result of voicing my opinion would be generating loads of it! So here I sit, biting my tongue until it bleeds, waiting for a resolution that will never come on its own. The longer I wait to confront the situation the more anger and resentment builds up in my soul until one of these days I will just explode! My biggest fear is I will explode on the wrong person, a person that doesn't deserve it but had the misfortune of saying the wrong thing at the wrong moment and.......BOOM!!! 
As you can see I have a lot to work through and a lot of soul searching that needs to be done. I've been working with my therapist on many of these issues but I still have a long way to go! More than anything I need to learn to let things go and move forward but that's easier said than done. At this moment all I really want is a diagnosis and to win my SSD case so I can contribute financially for my family.....If I could just have those two things my stress levels would go down exponentially! 
Well, thanks for reading!! Until next time.....