Alone

My body writhes in agony

And no one seems to care

I pray for some acknowledgement

But very few are there

I cry on social media

Just looking for compassion

But most people only care about

Celebs and the latest fashions

No one really understands

The reasons for my pain

Some doctors even seem to think

I am simply going insane

All I truly want right now

Is a real diagnosis

Someone to say that this is real

And not just some psychosis

All the hope and optimism is 

Slipping through my fingers

I feel the fear overtaking me

And the anxiety just lingers

I wish I had a magic wand

To make this disappear

The chronic pain, anxiety

And most of all the fear

I beg for understanding

From my friends and family

I am not a hypochondriac 

How can I make them see

Some days are better than others

But regardless I am sick

Some days I can't do anything

It's not a lie or a trick

Just because I don't look ill

Doesn't make it nonexistent 

I assure you it's inside of me

And terribly persistent

So when you see me looking well

And trying to be included

Don't assume that I am better

Or that I was just deluded

I have a few close family and friends

That come by or call on the phone

I thank God everyday for them

Because without them I'd be utterly alone